Sunday, June 13, 2010

Devastated.

I am not even sure what to write at this point but Matthew's leukemia has returned.  If there was a worst case scenario, this is it.  A large number of brain lesions were discovered on Matthew's brain during a precautionary CT scan today.  I can barely type this as my fingers are numb and if it turns into an obscenity laced tirade, well so be it. 

For the past few days, Matthew has been feeling very lathargic and has also been nauseous.  After one trip to the ER yesterday and concerned with the lack of improvement last night, we talked to the oncologist at CMH and came in.  The rest has been like getting sucker punched in the gut. This was supposed to an f'ing virus, which btw, whenever there is some sort of illness that can't be explained, its always called an f'ing virus.

Tomorrow morning, we have an MRI and a bone marrow to try to confirm the diagnosis after which, we will develop a plan of attack.  This is going to be an incredibly difficult fight.  Against much greater odds than the first.  If you are owed any miracles, now is the time to cash them in.

9 comments:

Kristin said...

I am praying for you guys. I love you all. I know matthew is a strong little man and he is going to get through this!!

Anonymous said...

Yes, we believe in miracles and that's what we're praying for.
All our thoughts, love and prayers, amj

Melinda said...

All of you are in my prayers! Please let me know if you need anything! We are thinking of you and Matthew! <3 Melinda

Garbis Grapevine said...

I don't even know what to say. Please know that I'm sending positive energy and prayers your way!!!! I also have a few choice words, but not sure that would be good on the blog.

Hugs and love
Lisa

rzolnierowicz said...

loving arms around you. Mighty prayers too.

Love you all,
Rosemary

Greg said...

We are thinking of you guys and will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. We do believe in miracles. Much love for all of you, Greg and Kelli

Michelle said...

Gene and Nicole - My heart goes out to you, and your entire family, especially Matthew, is in my prayers. The strength Matthew and all of you have shown throughout this ordeal is inspiring and an indication that miracles can and will happen.

~ Michelle

Sue Joy said...

Oh my god...what the f else! Just when you thought you were through the worst, this shit. I am so sorry to hear this and am crying now! What else can you be dealt...come on...if you are listening, STOP IT! All I can say is that you are super strong people and have been through so much together. Continue staying strong and believe that Matthew is a fighter and will beat this fing shit!!! All of my positive thoughts are for you and your family!!!!

Amy M said...

We believe in miracles and wish the next one your way. Tight hugs.
Love, Amy and Dana